now we can start a whole new decade of the same things.
i do have some resolutions this year.
1. seriously study japanese. i've always wanted to.
2. eat better.
3. try every food at panera.
4. practice saving money because i have too.
5. be a better student.
6. read more.
7. make friends in TX.
8. go out and explore my surroundings more.

yeap. lets make 2010 kick ass.

sometimes, i really hate you deviant art. actually, i hate on you a lot and you don't even know it. its not you that i entirely hate, its your users. now it could be my age, how i might function, or my artistic skill ,and personal taste but what ever happened to your users is something that i don't consider a very well toned place for artist on the internet. i've been drawing for over eight or nine years, give a couple of years because i always underestimate how old and how long i've been alive. since i've been drawing i've taken a few dozen art classes and completed a few hundred drawings. recently i've even taken an art class that i feel is the most i've ever learned from any art class i've taken in the past. its teaching me the oldest techniques that artist have been learning since the 1500's. that's something i consider to be me improving; making my talents fluctuate and change. i can take the hardest critique as well since i'm one of my own worst critics, unlike ninety percent of your users. that ten percent is in the same personal confusion that i'm in. i'm trying and working really hard to get in to school so i can become an accomplished graphic artist and/or animator. i cannot possibly become one now; i'm too much of a novice. this ninety percent of your other users i brought up have their heads so far up their asses that they expect everyone to show the same excitement that the deviant clan once showed them. i think i'm clumping this ninety percent with the other percent of people who try to draw but cannot possibly force themselves to become so accomplished and have no possible future in the careers of the arts. those people too are far to many in number to even accumulate a proper number. they try though, which is good. drawing is a talent that can be learned, much like learning an instrument. what one can't learn is having an eye, a feeling, a constant thought of how to draw what is before you. that is something that you find in the first years of life. now if only people would just realize what they're good at doesn't have to be drawing pictures of your fursona or anime self with naruto characters. you won't ever find a career in that unless you become really serious and take your art classes with all your attention, or your 'talent' will flat line until you eventually stop drawing out of frustration.

i doubt that anyone would read this as no one has read or comment on any of my past entries. i guess i don't have to worry about any 'dramu' to accumulate. lol that would be pretty funny. i'm hoping it doesn't but i feel a lot better getting all of that off my chest. i've realized after not really have much of a social life that i'm becoming a pretty good writer. also i can notice a few details in the way others create their sentences and how they bring words together. i guess that's just a product of being a lone for such a long time. you have more air between what you say and what you do.

work is hard but i's gettin paid an' that shit in important.

yeah, i'm getting a little drunk. i could use another.

i have togo a class to get my food handling card or something. i have to talk to my other manager Chris about it. i have two managers and two assistant managers. 4 people on my ass. today i had to do serving and busing which i like more than working the cashier. a little more action.

i have work tomorrow. 11:30 to 2:30. niiiiice.
i found an outback gift card with $30 on it in my wallet. kick ass.
i hope nothing goes wrong for a while.
i need to get some Christmas shopping done.
My art classes are going so fine. i posted of my finished pieces on facebook. no one gave a shit, i'm not surprised. if i like what i drew, no one else likes it. what the fuck is up with that? lol

how come brian from family guy is such a hypocritical liberal douche bag now? what the fuck happened? he used to be my favorite character because he was the smart alcoholic voice of reason. shhhit. i still find Seth McFarland as a sexy piece of ass but since hes putting his own beliefs on society and the government (which used to be funny and insightful.) are now just more one sided modern-liberal garbage. god.

so i'm going to drink some more, do some online shopping, and put my laundry away.

title is just the first thing i heard from the tv when starting this entry.

Jordan got his car fixed. it's working better than ever. whats even nicer is that the ipod radio thingy works better here than in Florida. I'm not sure why... I guess it has something to do with luck.
my Halloween was really fucking eventful. Friday night we saw paranormal activity and because it scared me so badly i couldn't sleep that night. i slept in till 11:30 and Jordan and i spent an hour watching 'bully beat down'. i ooh'd and ahh'd at this really cool looking guy named tony from Australian who had a black belt in jujitsu and muay thai boxing. he was so fucking cool. then we went to walmart to get a few things for our bed room. (computer chair, waste basket, laundry basket, and candy corn. just normal things.) after, we went to panera where, if you were paying attention, is another place where i turned in an application. i talked to the general manager, got myself a sandwich (or Jordan got me a sandwich...) and i was scheduled for an interview this Tuesday at 2:30pm. i'm so wicked excited. i told him that that I'm completely available for any job at any time and i just wanted work. so if you can learn from that, let them know how overly available you are. managers like that.
handing in another application to rave theater this Monday. they're looking for people and i want to see free movies. we're a good match.
uh... i feel pretty confident. so yeah.
drawing is going... normal. i can draw i just don't know what to draw.
we'll that's enough.